My heart is not broken. It's totally wrecked.
This time, I'm really clueless if it's only my mind that is giving me the lasting effect of how hard and how bitter it is to swallow every word and every message she's telling me every moment now that I'm looking for explanations. And if I reminisce all those memories I've had with the girl I'm trying to forget(maybe), it just leave me again with questions.
People always tease me now that I am bitter with what happened. Is it bitterness? Is that what you call a man who's been in a relationship for a year and a half with a girl whom he thought he's spending the rest of his life with? Bitterness I think is a right of every person in the same situation as mine who just doesn't seem to have "MOVING ON" in his vocabulary. Is "moving-on" a post-requisite to a break-up?
It may be those memories that keeps haunting me every day and every time that I sleep but I know that those were not plain memories. Those were things I've earned and kept while we were together but for now you blew them all away.
You may have your own reason for whatever you may want to call it this time but can't you just think of those times we've spent with each other? I know I've never been perfect nor your ideal man but you know how hard and badly I've tried.
Sometimes life would just really fucked us up with things that made you lackluster in the middle of a dull event and then rejuvenated at the end but that would also be the time that you would know that letting go or what you call as saying goodbye is imminent.
As to my case, everything has just been flowing until I noticed that it's too late to hold on to your grip.
This post is obviously for you because this is what you wanted from the start. I think everything is just really all because of you. For all these times, you were the reason of everything to me. My strength and my weakness is all because of what you showed me from the start. You give me the kind of life that I could only imagine in my dreams before. It's totally new to me when you came into my life. And I think what you've done to me this time is also totally new to my spirit. I know I've been in this kind of situation before and done all these things in the past but I want you to know that what you did to me this time is unexplainable. I'm clueless in all your actions today.
I have so many questions that are left unanswered this time. I have so many wishes in my life that I can only keep this time. I have so many dreams for us. But I know everything is over and I know that I can't have you back.
So maybe for now, I leave you with yourself free from all those responsibilities you've had with me but damn you know how much I have loved you and that love would never vanish.
You caused me so much pain and it's hard for me to say goodbye this time. I just hope you'll be fine without me.
This time, I'm really clueless if it's only my mind that is giving me the lasting effect of how hard and how bitter it is to swallow every word and every message she's telling me every moment now that I'm looking for explanations. And if I reminisce all those memories I've had with the girl I'm trying to forget(maybe), it just leave me again with questions.
People always tease me now that I am bitter with what happened. Is it bitterness? Is that what you call a man who's been in a relationship for a year and a half with a girl whom he thought he's spending the rest of his life with? Bitterness I think is a right of every person in the same situation as mine who just doesn't seem to have "MOVING ON" in his vocabulary. Is "moving-on" a post-requisite to a break-up?
It may be those memories that keeps haunting me every day and every time that I sleep but I know that those were not plain memories. Those were things I've earned and kept while we were together but for now you blew them all away.
You may have your own reason for whatever you may want to call it this time but can't you just think of those times we've spent with each other? I know I've never been perfect nor your ideal man but you know how hard and badly I've tried.
Sometimes life would just really fucked us up with things that made you lackluster in the middle of a dull event and then rejuvenated at the end but that would also be the time that you would know that letting go or what you call as saying goodbye is imminent.
As to my case, everything has just been flowing until I noticed that it's too late to hold on to your grip.
This post is obviously for you because this is what you wanted from the start. I think everything is just really all because of you. For all these times, you were the reason of everything to me. My strength and my weakness is all because of what you showed me from the start. You give me the kind of life that I could only imagine in my dreams before. It's totally new to me when you came into my life. And I think what you've done to me this time is also totally new to my spirit. I know I've been in this kind of situation before and done all these things in the past but I want you to know that what you did to me this time is unexplainable. I'm clueless in all your actions today.
I have so many questions that are left unanswered this time. I have so many wishes in my life that I can only keep this time. I have so many dreams for us. But I know everything is over and I know that I can't have you back.
So maybe for now, I leave you with yourself free from all those responsibilities you've had with me but damn you know how much I have loved you and that love would never vanish.
You caused me so much pain and it's hard for me to say goodbye this time. I just hope you'll be fine without me.
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